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- -destiny awaits me- -
viewed amongst
the monsters ahead
I see all there is to be held within
nothing can touch this state I have accomplished
all I
have within me, all I have demolished
all you can say, is that your sorry now
all I can respond with, is that your
not allowed
its to late for apologies, its to late to comfort me
you see, I’m freed, and truth is me
torn
apart and tossed ahead
nothing I see is comforting anymore
all I have known is all you have damaged
all I have
been, is all that I’ve lost
you cant crush me anymore
I cant trust you anymore
for we, were here, and you,
are gone, in me
all I have ever wanted lost in a dream, failed to see
amongst all that I have hoped for
I
begged to be destroyed, for you have torn
all I have needed, to see what is free
nothing I have acquired, has been
helpful to me
as I watch in troubled stillness
I see the face of all that is vicious
watching me, bloody face,
she hates me
tremble no more, I say I will be saved
it must be true, to see without you
finally the shadows
have been shone upon
finally the darkness you cast is forever gone
you are the weakness that tortured me
you are
the blinding blanket that covered me
now I can see, now I am free, all that I need is in front of me
wait to hear
the truth you have never wanted
I am happy, and you remain haunted
I trust that you will stay dead this time
I
will not stand for your insolence again
never shall we meet, no more blinding curse
I will run forever into the arms
of all I’ve needed
and I will watch you cower, behind me you’ll stay
all that you thought you controlled
its is all gone today
Torn To Me
shattered
and disfigured
dismembered and un-whole
I lay here with no certainty
I can't smile anymore
alone and torn
apart
the final chapters nigh
the things you did to me..
nothing can bring back sanity
unable to move
unable to cry
unable to feel
unable to die
what can make this go away?
what can take it all from me?
when will my life come back?
where do I go once you are done with me?
stapled in my mind
drilled into
my soul
nothing can burn that memory
nothing can kill these memories
knives are all around me
not even
willing to die
I lay still alone tonight
I breathe here as I see...
nobody can take this away
no one can
make me afraid
anticipating the final day
when my entity will fade away
ghostly figure in here I see
deadly
night in here with me
I breathe once more and say goodbye
I’m glad that this is when I die...
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sorrow,
regret, apology not accepted.
I must suffer for what I’ve done.
Painful choices, these painful repercussions.
Nothing
can tear the guilt away.
Guilty, I’m sorry, to hold you I’d die.
Never to see you.. lost my child
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bitter/
kind
look and tell me what you see
the freak, the bitch, you said you need
the life in which you mangled
the
hope, the ambition which you strangled
all you see when you look at me
a slave in which to lie and deceive
a heart
in which to maul and to leave
all that I hoped for, once thought to be you
all that I wanted, once you, all so
true
as soon and you broke my defense
as soon and you convinced me to let me love you
you shattered my essence,
you sodomized my soul
all that I saw in you, not what I see now
the moment I needed you more than foretold
the
instant you ran, to cry, not be bold
all I needed was your comfort, and to be returned
selfish fool, you ran, and
left me burned
naked flesh, absence of mind, broken soul, bitter kind
after my life I started anew
to be a feared
creature,
a creature that loved you
I shiver once more, and I think of you
disgusting filth, I lay, I trusted
you
foolishly I allowed you to ruin my hope
I thought nothing would make me feel so cold
lost and diminished,
runs yonder, my soul
and once more you cry for yourself
you selfish destructive fool
nothing I have seen,
so frightening as you
nothing you have seen, so shattered as me
all we were once, two lovers, no more
all we had
once, such trust, no more
open your eyes
open your eyes
the world banished me
you wont let me go
but
you ran away from me
look and tell me what you see
the thing you destroyed; it's me
Last Promise.
something
here I see
something I need inside of me
something I have lost
something that I forgot
be with me in this
moment
the end is near, we are frozen
nothing can take this feeling away
not even the end of the world today
hold
me in my time of need
I do not deserve to be freed
say that you'll love me 'till you die
I’ll accept it
even though I know its a lie
promise me I will not be forgotten
my memory will last in your hearts bottom
the
dent that I left, the scars that I received
promise you'll always remember me
here I stand, my end is near
here
we stand, together here
I’ll remember this moment as long as I’m dying
you said you loved me, I know you
were lying
this ray of light in front of me
this ray that is the end of me
no longer will I feel this way
so pleased the end is today
Pain--
why did you make me
feel that way?
all
is dead,
I’m here to stay.
alone and unwanted
lost in thought
I hate to feel
the pain you caused
jealousy won you
you continue to compete
the battle won
the war lost; incomplete
no picture in mind
no
words to say
the hatred inside
will never fade
happiness awaits me
comfort and trust
all I can see
is
the pain you've caused.
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--enchantress--
in your eyes, fear is seen
who could see what you feel?
misunderstood by the cruel and heartless
how could
you ever heal
mystic beauty, softest touch
trusted by many, loved so much
she asks that you obey her will
and in return, she may not kill
I question her; prepare to die
she falls to the ground, proceeds to cry
weakling
seen never
reputations cannot die
a fool she is to make us follow
when she is undeniably shallow
after
her reign, no one will listen
she shouldn’t have shown she is weak
confusion within her
she begs my
understanding
this one feared angel
now a pitiful sight
I saw right through her
I knew what to say
all
she had needed
was to hear what I’d say
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only me, only here,
never wanting to let go,
always down, never near,
always wanting to hold on
my minds asleep
although
I’m quite awake
I still wont make sense
no matter what I say
think of me, whisper my name
hold my
hand, clench till I bleed
brush you’re fingers thru my hair
then tear it out, blood on your hands..
do
u think I don’t feel like its all been done
I don’t cry when u do this to me
because it doesn’t
hurt anymore
is this really, really happening?
is it really, really, real
is it all just a dream
are you
really, really with me
one wish was made
to become more than what is,
one wish thought to be fulfilled,
now
I am less than I was
in the shadows of your hatred
pointed at me, I lurk
in hopes you will fear me,
and
your lives will come undone
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